| 94 Hours of Regret |
[Aug. 31st, 2004|10:06 pm] |
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| | KillSwitchEngage (old) | ] |
...i'm closing this journal b/c i'm bored of it...so
.......................................THE END.......................................
<3 {Kate} |
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| Your fading beauty...your frailty |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|09:09 pm] |
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| |  and confused | ] |
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| | As i Lay dying | ] |
I don't feel like myself today...My mom said me and Amy could go to the Atreyu concert...i'm pretty relieved she said yes...and Amy will be so happy...
one night opens wounds
and words utter pain
the truth cannot breathe
a one in your soul
you've hid hearts and songs
as long as you recall
his kind words just fall near your feet
with their last air, all they want is to be heard
in your sweet ears just once
uh well...good night |
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| Where Words and Kisses go to Die |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|09:19 pm] |
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| |  sore | ] |
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| | Jack Off Jill *Clear hearts..Grey Flowers* | ] |
to tired to write about my day....
Turn him over, a candle is lit I see through him; blow it out and save all his ashes for me. Curse me sold him, the poison that runs his course through him, pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over…Watch me fault him, your living like a disaster, He said “kill me faster”, with strawberry gashes all over…Called him over and asked him if he was improving, he said “feels fine” its wonderful, wonderful here. Hex me, told him I dreamt of a devil that knew him, Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over…I lay quiet waiting for his voice to say, “Some things you lose, and some things you just give away…Scold me failed him, if only I’d held on tighter, to his pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me…Watch me lose him, its almost like losing myself…Give him my soul, and let them take somebody else, get away from me…Watch me fault him, your living like a disaster… He said “Kill me faster” with strawberry gashes all over, all over me… |
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| I See....A Comfort Cutting Time |
[Aug. 22nd, 2004|09:20 pm] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
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| | Stone Sour | ] |
long weekend....Friday, not so great...Saturday, got up early and went to this place with Amy...
It was good fun at some points...i'll tell you about it when i give a fuck...***...but i just came home to a new set of rules my mother dearest (cough)...has set for me...so i'm going to go think evil thoughts about her... {Kate}
...i'm so very sorry... |
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| Suck the Life Out of Me |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|09:11 pm] |
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| |  indifferent | ] |
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| | Jordan, phone...yea | ] |
I went to Church with Amy and Troy yesterday...it was cool i guess...til Mason started talking bullshit, that was gay...then it got kinda blah...Troy rewrote math...and an emo kid talked to us...Lucy tried taking a picture of me...and Troy held me down...and practically broke my arm...and it hurt...but then Troy almost killed his finger because he put Amy's ring on and couldn't get it off...and he was screaming like a little girl...then i pulled really hard and got it off...and he fell on the ground...i laughed.*.and everyone thought i was really sad and kept bugging me about it..and yea...
-I'm going to this place with Amy this weekend...it should be fun...and if not we will find a field and sit in it...
*Break myself, slave to my weakness, choke on my words...oh i'm drowning and i feel so alone* the lights are on and i wish i was home...*My lips are screaming pretty nothings*...My ears are bleeding for want of words...hope has left me fucking shattered...i am choking back my longing for shed tears...don't worry it only hurts when i breathe... |
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| -Notes on Pulling the Sky Down- |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | Strike Anywhere *Change is a Sound* | ] |
i didn't do anything interesting today...and i don't have anything to write...so just leave comments or something...i don't care
The mark I breathe on you.
It's burning through your soul.
The breath I waste.
Losing control.
I bleed in pain.
Testing what I know.
Lips soaked in deceit.
Pull me from here.
No one's innocent.
The face of beauty to fall for.
Brought down by feelings of regret.
Again your mind has failed the test.
Break your thought.
Fuck your mind.
Pull me from this hole.
i havn't anything to do...so later </3 |
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| Sing it loud to drown out the feeling |
[Aug. 15th, 2004|08:07 pm] |
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| | pessimistic | ] |
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| | Adema | ] |
This weekend has felt pretty short...and at some points boring...but i suppose i wouldn't of had it any other way...
I hung out with Amy on Saturday and a lot of Sunday... we watched movies...and thats about it...Then i went out to this place and hung out with my sister and Wilson...its odd...the second my mum leaves me alone with Lindsay...its like an automatic game of 21 questions...and Wilson backs her up...its a battle i never win...and they always get dirt on me...[ ...assuming there is dirt to be gotten ;-)... ]
I hope Rose is getting through the weekend alright...<3
Troy just sent me this emo game thing...very strange...it has something against me...Sum 41 will not fucking die...
And now your distance is darkness
My hope has been beset by your absence
I decay from inside
and underneath it all there is still life
new computer cerfew (so gay), so i must go...later |
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| Pull me into your "perfect" circle |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|09:04 pm] |
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| |  exanimate | ] |
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| | A Perfect Circle *Mer De Noms* | ] |
another bad day...
its Friday the 13th...not that it means anything...
i managed to get grounded again for simply existing...i think i have almost perfected that skill...
Amy was supposed to call me from the KoRn concert to let me hear...but my mum told me i coudln't pick up the phone when she calls...i hope she chokes...
I really don't have anything to say
Just pass me by
Don't ask me the same questions
Just deny I'm here
thats all i really care to write... {Kate} |
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| Desolation. Desire. Exhale. Passaway. |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|09:01 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | Diary of Dreams... *Chrysalis* | ] |
i had a really bad day and don't feel like writing about it...which leaves you to wonder...
Rose i doubt this will help...but if its any consolation...i <3 you...
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i'm tying you up...using the nicest lace...trying to kill you softly...trying to erase your face... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|09:29 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
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| | A 7 X | ] |
Tonight kinda sucked, (but was awsome at the same time)....CBC is soo lame now...Seems like its always me and Amy that get screwed over...and end up walking on the side of the road...and sitting in fields...i can't even count how many times that has happend...but we always somehow make it fun...minus getting yelled at by brainless pervs...
Wilson gave me a lesson on sado-masochism today...poor guy actually thinks i'm going to have crazy bondage sex on needles...lol...well Wil i promise you don't have to worry...
well its practically Thursday...which is almost Friday...which ultimately equals the weekend...so i almost (but not quite) have something to look forward too...
skipping curfew again...
i have to go do some -stuff- so...later |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|09:01 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | QOTD Soundtrack | ] |
school sux ass.....work sux ass...(kids are annoying, whiney pieces of crap that always eather need to go to the bathroom..or get a goddamn tissue).....i'm so only in it for the money)...
Troy has cursed me....but i cursed him back so we are even...
i'm really bored...so...goodnight... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
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| | annoyed | ] |
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| | Stone Sour | ] |
this weekend was pretty cool...i suppose just for the weird ones though...
i had to go to d*nce today...i completely despise it...
Lindsay and Wilson are stuck in Germany...which is funny cept i have to deal with THEIR (happy Wil) dogs for extra days.....they better be bringing me a present back!!lol...jk
well i'm going b/c i don't feel like being grounded for once... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 6th, 2004|11:05 pm] |
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| |  hyper | ] |
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| | Korn "Untouchables" | ] |
YO this is Kate and Aimee...Amy was supposed to ride home on the bus with me but my bus driver is a bitch and did not take her note thingy...so then we got on her bus and sat by fat people that smelled grody...We went from Aimee's house to my house...then went to the mall...Then we sat on a grass hill...and frolicked in a fountain...If there was a place to go we would get our friends and go there...and stuff...Then we felt like walking to Target...and these wegroes were like "hey where you guys going" how much"...and Aimee being the smart one she is Flicks them off and of course there like OK!! Five dollars...and so they follow us in there car...and we run...and stuff...and then they pull beside us and tell us we are only worth two fifty...and drove away...Then we found these kool pine tree thingy's and decided it would be a cool (but painful) place to fuck...Then we wanted to go see the Cinderella Story for the hell of it...but the God damn movies stopped showing it at like 8...so we bummed some quarters off some black people and bought big ass jaw breakers...and stuff...Then we walked around... and threw this glass bottle thing and Then we kinda stocked this guy and his son but not on purpose...We decided that the bowling alley blows... we just were afraid to admit it before...so now we are going to go and get kicked out...and hang other places even if its just me and her...
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anyway
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Jordan is still in florida...getting eaten by sharks...and stuff...
say it...FUCK FRANKIE!
ok off to watch movies...sweet dreams... {Kate} and Aimee |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 3rd, 2004|10:04 pm] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
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| | KillSwitchEngage *Alive or just Breathing* | ] |
-Jordan is going to Florida tomorrow...and getting eatin by a shark...sounds exciting
-i have to watch my sisters dogs for a couple days...should be entertaining...
- doubt anyone reads this so i might as well go...
.......k byte |
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| random |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|09:47 pm] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | Thrice "the illusion of Safety" | ] |
troy allmighty: helloo katie
VeiledExistance: heylo tory
troy allmighty: wat is up my pale faced friend
VeiledExistance: nothing
VeiledExistance:what is up (your charlie). .. my fellow transvestite friend....?
troy allmighty: haha
troy allmighty: i think sumone has sand in their charlie
troy allmighty: n its not me
VeiledExistance: you know i agree with amy....sex on the beach doesn't sound too great.......
troy allmighty: i wouldnt wanna do it
VeiledExistance: it'd be too messy
troy allmighty: yea
troy allmighty: i wanna do it on a waffle house table while sumones eatin their pancakes
VeiledExistance: it would be kool to be smothered in syrup lol
troy allmighty: haha
VeiledExistance: is this troy having sex as troy or tory?
troy allmighty: as troy
VeiledExistance: so if it was a guy eating pancakes would he be aloud to join ?
troy allmighty: id do a guy
troy allmighty: at least once
troy allmighty: as tory
troy allmighty: nope troy
troy allmighty: troys not gay
VeiledExistance: anal ?
troy allmighty: would i do it as a girl?
VeiledExistance: would you do it period
troy allmighty: as a girl....
troy allmighty: so kate wanna have wild monkey sex on a waffle house table on sum dudes pancakes
VeiledExistance: will there be syrup.?
troy allmighty: oh yes
troy allmighty: lots of syrup
i dont know why i had an urge to put that in here....but it was my laugh for the day...enjoy...but not too much... {Kate} |
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| SHIIIIT |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|09:29 pm] |
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| |  horny | ] |
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| | as i lay dying | ] |
Yo...this is Jordan updating Kates journal. I will do my best to tell you what she did
Today i woke up and then got dressed and then went to amys house and then got in the car in then got dropped off at school and then went to class and then went to lunch and ate meat and then went home and ate more meat and then talked to jordan on the phone and then talked to jordan on the computer and now im trying to get grounded for 2 weeks so i dont have to talk to jordan muahahaha i mean ok. well thats all i did today until next time....Kate (jordan) |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|09:40 pm] |
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| |  worried | ] |
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| | 36 Crazyfists "Bitterness the Star" | ] |
i forgot my friggin bracelets at Jordans again...i have a feeling i'm never getting those back...
people keep telling me i always look sad and never talk...that gets really annoying about the fourth time you have heard it...and i can't help it that i don't like talking...so bite me!
Jordan is showing me scary video things...
i get to go to school tomorrow and get totally lost...joy, can't wait
thats all i feel like writing...byte |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 31st, 2004|11:48 pm] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
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| | Atreyu "The Curse" | ] |
...havn't really felt like updating in awhile.....lots and lots has changed but i don't really want to write about it...
i start school in approximately a day...and i would do anything to not have to go...
*Today i picked up Troy and went to Jordans...it was cool i guess.....btw Troy has recently experienced a sex change and will now be refered to as "Tory"...i was contimplating a sex change...but then Troy vividly described the male anatomy to me...and i decided i was content being a girl...as for Troy/Tory...good luck being a chick...and experimenting with sticking things up your...yea...;-)
< my dad is upstairs watching "The Princess Diaries"...i didn't know guys enjoyed sappy Disney movies...creepy >
~the Atreyu cd Jordan gave me is pretty cool...
mmk...off to bed...good night... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|10:30 pm] |
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| | indifferent | ] |
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| | Taproot *Welcome* | ] |
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my sister came over today and we hung out...it was cool i guess...
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......::in company, respect's shown mutual into it's own indifference::.........
....::when left alone and true feelings begin to show, blind and alive::........ |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|01:06 am] |
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| | okay | ] |
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| | 36 CrazyFists *SnowCappedRomance* | ] |
...unusual breathing...inviting silence..
Ashlyn's birthday party was today...i got sunburn...oh well...
::they all seem so truthful...couldn't find a better way to lie::
"You should've called out
Made ammends
Broken hearts breath unison
I was trying to gather mine
All my tragedies are my enemies
All my enemies are mine-36 CrazyFists
http://www.36crazyfists.com/news/index.aspx
tired... love {Kate} |
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